That's the moral trauma of an anti-war liberal. Here is how she describes it herself, Yasmin Alibhai-Brown in conversation with Radio 5 Live's Adrian Chiles:
Chiles: So where do you stand on the whole business [Iraq] now? You'd rather we just never bothered in the first place?You can hear it for yourself here, 1 hour 32 minutes in. Maybe it's just one person's eccentric thought process, and maybe it isn't. Who's to say? (Hat tip: Andrew Russell.)
Alibhai-Brown: Well, you know, it's really difficult; I was thinking this morning - I mean the kind of moral trauma. I've been against the war and part of you begins to... you know, it's horrible how your mind works. You think 'Good!', you wake up thinking 'Good, there's all this mess'. And then you have to question your own self, saying what kind of a human being are you, that you want this mess? So, I think I'm terrified of what's happening. I don't think we can pull out now.